You should never, never doubt what nobody is sure about

Ugh. I've had such a bad day. No one in the academic field has any confidence in me. It is very discouraging.

In this blog atmosphere I think I will have a hard time keeping track of what I should keep personal and what I should feel is appropriate to publish. I want this to be a personal update of my life but I don't any feelings to get hurt or exploit myself and later regret it. hmm...boundaries and limits two of my best qualities.

I still feel alone at school. And this is no one's fault but my own. If I could only reach out. There always seems to be something blocking me.

At times like this I like to listen to some good music and sing a long. But then I get really self conscious because I've always wished I was a better singer. I know people say, "oh I wish I could sing". But this is something I have wished since I was little girl. (exploitation number 1 lol) But I shouldn't let that stop me from singing (opposed to sinning which I accidentally wrote)
my heart out!

That's all for today. Mattie didn't poop today. I expect a special gift for me in the morning! TMI? Maybe for most, but it's an everyday topic for me. Deal.